Loneliness
by Tammy Bartholomew
Wish I could explain
The loneliness I feel
It is sadness like I have never known
And everything so surreal
Didn’t choose this
Maybe that is why
Just want to curl up
In a ball and just die
My first night
Truly being alone
All the kids gone
No one at our home
Today I signed
The first steps to let you go
It kills me inside
Because I loved you so
Want to fight
For me and you
But I don’t think
You want me to
Maybe I am just like you
Not wanting to be by myself
But I definitely don’t want
To be with someone else
Never realized how you felt
Because you never shared
Whatever made you think
That I never cared
You and the kids
Are my life as I know
I am still confused
How do I let go
Will give it God
Hopefully he can provide
What my future is clearly about
Bringing peace to me inside
They say divorce
You start to grieve
But I never in my life
Wanted you to leave
