by Tammy Bartholomew
Love
Love is a mystery Found in interesting places Created by people Things, time & spaces It can be given freely Or come with a cost Keep it forever Mostly always lost Established from a distance Or over a period of time Sometimes a hidden secret Love is even blind The hardest love Is to Love ourselves Continually looking for it From things or someone else Why can’t we be happy Without continued affirmations Materialistic things Other contributions Some want to share Through touch & emotions All this does is mix With our devotions It doesn’t seem Enough giving it freely It just gets pushed away While others take it so willingly When taken And not given back Our heart is broken Not knowing how to react Time tends to heal Love that is lost Another journey looking Finding it at all cost If we are not getting The love to fill the empty hole We will go scouring risking It all to fill our soul We get furious when Our Love is taken Thinking we deserved it But we are sadly mistaken Becoming jaded an angry Revenge becomes the plan How can this be Why don’t we understand Give your heart so young Thinking it is forever That is just not the case With all life’s endeavors Balance is the key Know what fills the part Forgiveness is needed To let Love in your heart Who Is My Protector Who is my Protector When I go astray Helps with my insecurities Problems along the way It should be my father It will never be To many issues of his own Not always able to help me Is it my mother Yes from the day I was born Sometimes overwhelmed Never leaving me alone It should be my ex husband But to busy always to deal Can’t depend on him Himself learning how to heal My counselor Listens and reaffirms But me teaching myself For what I have learned Is it a new man Trying to fit his mold Not to be fat, independent or strong Opinionated or too bold Is it my Bestie When I have a bad day Just pick up the phone I am a phone call away Why do people think I am the solver of problems Never the first to know Always where it ends Searching frantically When problems arise Not knowing the answer Too much of a surprise Ask myself again Who will be there to protect me Will it be God For all eternity Please save me Relieves me from the pain Teach me that I am The one not to blame Help me come up with a solution Put a plan in motion Calm all the people From this great commotion Let them know I need protection too Don’t always have the answers Let him see them through Teach me from the Help me through today Guide me into tomorrow Protect me when I don’t know the way Freedom to Fly White picket fence Two car garage Three perfect children Full time jobs Day to day living Family vacations Love growing Building relations Dining out Church on Sunday Cleaning house Kids we would play Tables turn In half a life Choices made No longer a wife Single moments Dust starting to settle Gathering information Start fixing the mental Pain and suffering Heart mending Old and new Starts blending Not a failure My new reality Focus on the future And what will be Savor the moments Time to spend Patience and peace Learning to bend A piece of the cookie Instead of the whole Content with that Blessing to my soul As the breeze Continues to blow by Give myself permissions Wings and freedom to fly
