Happy Birthday Mom
My mom would have had her 60th birthday today.
I have been sitting here contemplating, trying to decide the best way to commemorate my mom’s birthday. I have decided that nothing I can say or do can possibly describe how it feels to be without the most important person in my life. There is not a day that goes by that we don’t think about her. There is not a day that goes by that we don’t miss her smile, her laugh, and the joy that she filled our lives with. I miss her hugs and words of encouragement. I miss the sound of her voice and the feel of her arms wrapped around me. If only we could have another hug and another laugh.
My memories of my mom are not always filled with sadness. There are times that I will walk by something in the store and think to myself how much mom would have loved that. Sometimes it can be something as simple as a song on the radio or some other event that stirs up a remembrance of all of the amazing memories that will never go away.
I would not necessarily say that it gets easier as time goes on. I would say that the really hard, horrible, ugly days that you feel that overwhelming sadness and pain wash over you just get a little farther apart. I don’t think that I will ever get over the loss of my mom and I will certainly never forget her, but life has to continue on. It is what she would want. We have to keep living and raising our children, her grandchildren, who meant more to her than anything in this world. I take comfort in thinking that she is watching over us and seeing that we honor her and are able to continue on in her memory.
My world is not the same without you, Mom. I love you and miss you so much.